simmosyke

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Sleepless Wednesday — Tue, 30 Aug 2011 22:30:09 +0000

No one reads this anymore and if you do, then good for you. I feel like shit and deserve nothing. I will never be good enough to make the people I love feel the way they deserve to feel. I’m sorry that I can’t fix your lives. I’ve tried as hard as possible. I’ve tried for years. Please atleast appreciate how hard I’ve tried. I can’t do it anymore. I wish I could. I can’t be perfect. I’ve tried so hard and I just can’t anymore.

Sleepless Wednesday — Sat, 29 Jan 2011 00:04:22 +0000

Sleepless Wednesday — Wed, 19 Jan 2011 21:22:43 +0000

I can’t shake this. I’m always so tired and it’s making everything worse.

Sleepless Wednesday — Sun, 16 Jan 2011 22:57:49 +0000

It feels like it’s going to fall apart again. I’m trying to distract myself but maybe that’s not the best idea. Maybe I’m just overtired and feeling things that aren’t there, but maybe I’m just trying to make excuses.

Sleepless Wednesday — Sat, 15 Jan 2011 08:31:17 +0000

I feel the need to write a train of thought but whenever I try to type what I’m thinking, I just get angry and want to punch something. I don’t know how to fix this. Fuck off.

Sleepless Wednesday — Sat, 15 Jan 2011 08:07:57 +0000

I’m losing my mind. I’m back where I was a year ago. Fuck this. I want to hit something.

Sleepless Wednesday — Sat, 15 Jan 2011 00:09:37 +0000

I haven’t felt like this in over 6 months. What the fuck? Fuck off. This isn’t meant to happen anymore.

Sleepless Wednesday — Fri, 14 Jan 2011 00:28:27 +0000

I’m so incredibly bored. I still feel like something isn’t right and I can’t think of what it is. I’m still so tired even though I slept for 9 or 10 hours last night.
Today I wanted to ride my bike somewhere nice, take photos and read but it keeps raining and then being sunny and going back to rain so I don’t really feel like it. I want to bake something too but I can’t find anything I feel like making or eating. I got work off because I feel like I need time to myself but that’s not really helping either. I’m so restless.

Sleepless Wednesday — Tue, 11 Jan 2011 23:16:57 +0000

There’s something strange about today… I don’t like the way it’s making me feel. I’m pulling apart tiny things that are bothering me and letting them get to me more than they should. There are so many things in my life that I’ve just learnt to accept, even if I wasn’t okay with it.
Today’s one of those days where I realise I’m not okay with any of it….

Sleepless Wednesday — Mon, 06 Dec 2010 11:43:22 +0000

I loooooooove how whenever someone decides to ask me how everything in my life is going, they immediately get awkward and unresponsive when I mention my boyfriend. Sick friends.